Tonight i feel somewhat depressed since i'm undecided on this existential dilemma:

my website is hosted on a relatively powerful VPS that i pay about €8,50 a month for. For the domain i'm also paying like €8 every February 19th.

Now on my prepaid card i have um, quite a bit of money (not above €500, but still way more than what i'd ever personally spend in a year, which itself isnt really that much) so i can 100% afford all of this for like 6 years, but i'm kind of paranoid and i get heart attacks whenever i see my number go down with each billing.

I like to preserve money since i'm still young and would benefit so much from every last penny in the future (school/uni, jobs, starting life yk) and while me and my family already have accumulated money in bulk quantities hidden jealously for that reason over a longer time, i still subconsciously get the fear of "wasting money" with all of this website paying thing.

I need some psychotherapy lmao help me